SHIKIMIKIE: Love
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts

Saturday 9 January 2016

Emotions. A lot of it.

January 09, 2016 0
Emotions. A lot of it.

I'm already 23 years old. Young to have experienced it all, yes. But old enough to know things even when it doesn't necessarily directly apply to me. 

Blogged: April 7, 2012 

Well, being left alone as to say. Let me tell you a story. I used to have this Vietnamese friend from Sydney, Australia. I met him when I decided I wanted to study French (I still do) and I would be willingly teach that person English/Japanese/Filipino. Well this guy wanted to learn Japanese. He didn't teach me French because he only knows English but he was actually awesome. He's very down to earth, kind, bubbly, sweet, and everything you could ask for. We used to talk everyday, every effing night for let's say 2 years. I actually ended up not teaching him the language at all haha. We talk about the most random stuff. Like, sometimes he would call and not say anything at all. And we're fine with that. Sweet silence. Most of the time he would say sweet things, we listen to his or my playlist and all that but you know, 3 years ago, after that 2 years of consistent communication, it stopped. No warning. I mean, I don't know why but it got me real hard. I guess part of my disappointment is that I expected too much. Who wouldn't, right? But you know, he's not even my boyfriend. I assumed. It was like me not wanting to talk to anyone that time. My friends and family excluded of course. Other guys to be specific. After 2-3 years of no formal communication, we managed to somehow try to reach out again. For me it was a form or closure. An assurance that we still are friends. Once in a while, we text. 

Blogged: November 11, 2012

There are still scattered blogpost about this guy but you know, overtime, I learned to accept. I guess time was really just in our favour and magically fixed everything. We're cool. 

I am going thru the same crisis right now. This is not even the story. But the same thing. A more complicated story actually. As much as possible I don't want this to end because it's beautiful but I guess sometimes things are really meant to end and teach us a lesson. Whatever that is, we'll learn later in life. It's painful now, yes. It's painful even just to think that tomorrow might not be the same anymore. More or less, I think we would know when to let go. We're just really denying it and just trying to deal with the pain well in fact, it's about time. Time to free ourselves of things that once made us happy and sad at the same time. It's complicated. But it's gonna be alright. You know, thinking about what I went thru 3 years ago, I know it's gonna be hard but at the end, it's gonna be okay. Not right ahead but eventually. You shouldn't be in a situation (for too long) where you feel worthless. Ciao! 

Tuesday 17 March 2015

Raise your Glass

March 17, 2015 0
Raise your Glass






I am a fan of "sours" lately. Basically these are Japanese alcoholic cocktails that are super yummy. Ume sour is probobly my favorite. I don't know. There's just something with ume and myself lately. Should I find a non-alcoholic version of an ume drink, I'm down for it. I'm such a responsible adult that I even told my mom about it. I told her I was drinking it that moment and that it is alcoholic. No reply. Haha












Can we just appreciate this a little bit? I mean, this is serious business. The clouds ringing the mountains looks gorge! Little things like this, ugh! Makes my heart jump, really. Anyways what I really want to do is that I want to talk with you about this. You know I have this crush at work, right? I mean, he's cute but for some reason, without us even talking, my aunties think that I'm like head over heels already. I mean, I'm not that desperate. I don't feel like that towards him you know. I just don't get why they would think of it like that. Some even think that he's my soulmate. Hahaha already? If he really is, then this might be something to laugh about later but you know, I don't think so actually. Is it natural to be that crazy about someone who you haven't even talked to? Is it just me being cold or something? I mean, if this happened in High School, maybe. Even college. But things are different now. This ain't no school to be messing around with feelings and stuff you know. I just don't feel like that now. For some reason, I feel more responsible for my feelings. That's probably why things work differently for me. Ciao! 







Tuesday 13 May 2014

It's not COOL to be a Stalker!

May 13, 2014 0
It's not COOL to be a Stalker!
feel kind of lost yet again. I hate this kind of feeling you know. But then again, who wakes up in the morning and look forward to feeling lost, right? I just think that as I grow older, I feel lost the more, you know. On a perfect world, you should be able to find yourself as you age but this world I think is not that kind of world. That's why there are a lot of point in our lives when we can attach the word -crisis. Mid-life, mid-twenties, mid-thirties, mid-fourties, and so on! So I guess I'm not alone. But also, there are different types of crisis. So I don't know if feeling lost is something they are not actually going through and you know, stuff like that. Stuff that only consumes my time and mind. One of that is considering moving to Tokyo. That's actually mild. On a more wilder side of things, I'm considering moving to the United States. But not like anytime soon. Pero you know! Those kind of things I think about. I will lean towards the positive side though! All is well. I think. 

Oh can I make chika na? Nothing to do with my life choices. I have been stalking someone from afar. I have been stalking someone's girlfriend. Girlfriend of a guy I used to talk to before. Talk lang naman. Well they really look happy. But I'm not really happy for them. Confirmed!! Hahaha bitter lang ang peg. E kasi naman!! Should I forget about that guy? Poproblemahim ko pa yun? But I must confess! That my loneliness! Is killing me now. Do you know I still believe? Hahaha yup! Pulling up a BRITNEY SPEARS there. But not really. Priorities!! Bahala na sila! Eto pa! You know when I see their pictures, I'd be like, BITCH! Or like, THIS BITCH! Hahaha. Just to make it clear though, I'm not miserable or something. As if naman! In fairness naman kay girl ha! I'll continue to stalk and see whether there would be a happy ending.  I'm not doing anything crazy though so I'm proud of myself for that as well. Let it be! 

So on a more positive note, as if stalking is positive, I'm starting work tomorrow!! I'm gonna work really hard! Like always! I'm actually quite proud of myself on that department. I think I work hard enough as far as work goes. That's all guys! I hope you're all having a good month and life if there's anything, let me know! See you! 

Sunday 4 November 2012

Hate No More. Sometimes.

November 04, 2012 0
Hate No More. Sometimes.

Right! Like, it really annoys me when people say they hate someone especially if they're just the same in my book.

Like, when people say something to someone because of something that that someone did that the certain someone didn't like. And then he or she complains, I'd be like WTF is going on? Like, seriously. When I'm ultra close to that someone, I'd be very much eager to remind him or her of a certain happening when he or she did exactly the same.

Like, in your face.

But to those I don't really know much, oh well. That's life.

I guess it's really a tough world. People trying to be the only one of their kind and hating the rest who are copying, eh? Well. Oh well.

It can also be the other way around though. Sometimes the one copying is the one hating. And I don't see the point. Like, sometimes, it happens. And sometimes I don't see the point.

I can just imagine how there would be a lot of group of friends and stuff if people would just be friends with people they are alike. Did I make sense there? LOL.

"Let's not hate what we can't imitate."

But let's not hate at all. Like, if we can still help it.

Naturally, we would want to look for friends that are our level. Same attitude, same this, same that. Right? So what the heck is the fuss of hating people that are our like? Mmm...

Just come to think of it.

Thursday 11 October 2012

Move On.

October 11, 2012 0
Move On.

It seems like impossible but you'll get over it.

At some point, after giving it your all for the longest time, you'll get tired of struggling to get someone or someone back or whatnot. But the good news is, you'll realize that one day, you're just wasting your time over that someone who doesn't even give a dang or dang anymore.

It may seem unfair that they don't give us their time and stuff but thinking about it, we're actually being unfair mostly to ourselves for denying ourselves the happiness and the freedom to enjoy life. But that's another story.

At some point in your life, you will feel alone. THAT'S PROBABLY TRUE. But that doesn't mean you are! You just have to re-establish your thinking. Like, don't think that you'll be with that person you want to be with and you'll notice that there are a lot more out there. I'm not saying that you should get them all and stuff but the point is, stop trying to get someone who doesn't have the slightest will to be with you. Get it? PLUS! You have your family and friends with you. For sure. So don't feel so alone.

Like, at some point, you'll realize that you're more important than that person. That you have to make yourself happy. UNLESS YOU'RE HAPPY THAT YOU'RE NOT PART OF THE OTHER PERSON'S PLAN. Which I doubt and I hope I'm right of my uncertainty.

OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND. I don't know if I already said it here or whatever but yeah. Try not to come across to anything that'll just remind you of that person and after quite some time, it'll get better. You won't be wanting the person as much as you did and that can be the start of something good. It's not gonna be instant! You have to be patient and be sooooo determined that when the urge to actually fall for that person ever again comes, you will not.

I actually am feeling better about quite a lot of things so this post is relevant to me too. I need improvement on whatever I'm doing but whatever happens, at least I'm going there. That's all that I want to say. See yah!

Monday 10 September 2012

Stay Strong, Mocha.

September 10, 2012 0
Stay Strong, Mocha.
I feel kind of sad today. If you still remember Mocha, our house pet.


Well, I'll just link you here. One of her babies actually passed away earlier this morning (091012). That puppy didn't really show much strength and all that. We would always have to guide her to her mother's breast for her to feed and stuff and if not, she would just always stay at the corner of the birth tub. The thing is that the other baby is actually the opposite of the other baby. She would always go and feed herself and as a result, the size of the baby who survived is actually half as much as that of that passed away.


I feel sad for Mocha. This might be a little disturbing but mom asked me to remove the dead puppy in the tub and when I lifted the puppy, Mocha still licked her as a sign of love and all that. And that's just sad. Yesterday, that puppy didn't show much sign of life, and by that I mean, she's just so weak and looks like she's not gonna survive and all that. I won't go any further than that but yeah. I wish that Mocha would recover from this. We'll definitely take care of the puppy that survived. I wish that she'll grow up healthy like Mocha. 


"Grief is the price we pay for love." - Queen Elizabeth II

Thursday 6 September 2012

Be Strong.

September 06, 2012 0
Be Strong.

I just want to say that we should be wiser when it comes to things. I know that there are quite a lot of things that we don't have a control over but yeah we should try. And I'm not actually referring to scientific stuff like our heartbeat, breathing, blinking, and stuff. Nothing like that. You know! Some emotional stuff. It's just that, life is too good and short to waste on stuff that does not do anything for us at all.

Let's say, CIGARETTES.

I have nothing against people who smoke or anything but I'm just saying. Well, not only that it is not doing anything for you but it actually harms you and stuff. Not only you! It harms the person next to you. I know you don't care whether or not strangers would be sick and stuff from it but yeah. Not only that you're generally unhealthy, you're also generally selfish. HOW SAD. And with cigarette smoking, if it's kind of gone, people actually become kind of emotional and all that. Of course I know that it's our body's response and stuff but whatever.

MOVING ON...

I'm not saying that we shouldn't be thankful to those people. I mean, they did something to us. Even though it is so little. It's just that we shouldn't let them control us and take over everything. People who do us nothing and we still we let them control over our emotions and feelings is yet another story. That's worst. Okay never mind.

ONE MORE EXAMPLE IS LIKING SOMEONE.

When we like someone, we get inspired and all that. Which is good! Inspiration is good. It makes us look forward to tomorrow and stuff. It makes us love life and live it. Because like what I've said, we get inspired. Inspired to do things and all that. But that's just about it. It's kind of stupid to do stuff that is completely out of the picture. I heard some stories like that before of course. Like, someone ended their lives because someone didn't like them and stuff. Oh wells.

WHEN YOU'RE IN A RELATIONSHIP.

It's kind of tricky when you're in a relationship. Because most probably, you have to work on it for it to work. But there will come a time when you'll realize that it's only YOU who is working on it and that your partner doesn't care anymore or whatever. So in that case, you have to decide. It's either you tell that someone or you suffer.

This whole thing might be kind of blurry but this is how I really see this. Kind of blurry. LOL. But seriously! If someone actually doesn't do us any good, then what's up? Why are we hanging on? Maybe that's just the way we see things. We like to wait and give and give and give and give some more. Even though we don't get something in return. Even though it means that we have to suffer. We don't mind. But the thing is that this whole situation is eating us. SLOWLY BUT SURELY. Oh well.

Tuesday 5 June 2012

Shoop O_o.

June 05, 2012 0
Shoop O_o.

I actually forgot these babies! Classy! :)
I don't know what I was thinking when I suddenly decided to show my Shoop collection and forget about these. I love love these!

Like, I can pretty much use it anytime, anywhere. You can use it in a formal event without being casual and you can use it in a casual event, without being formal. Voila!

LOVE.PROTECT.RESPECT.

June 05, 2012 1
LOVE.PROTECT.RESPECT.
Guess what? I'm ready to show my Shoop collection! :)

And I'll show them to you in the order I got them. Of course! All courtesy of my auntie. Thanks tita (auntie in Filipino). :) Me loves you so much!


As you can see from the bag, Shoop's logo is like that. It's like a girl with an afro hair, long and thick eyelashes, pouting lips, a big earring, and a mole. Or at least that's how I would describe it. Pretty awesome, huh? YUP.


This one is kind of special since my auntie gave one to my cousin too. We're like twins! LOL. What I don't like about this bag is that it doesn't have a stopper on the zipper. So if you're careless, there's a big chance that you're gonna open the whole thing. Do you get what I mean? :/


The so-awesome jacket that is very awesome. LOL. So redundant. Seriously though, this had helped me survive the freezing temperature of UST mezzanine's main building. And I like it because it's cut is not your regular jacket cut. It's kind of longer and gives the look of a dress. Which I really really like.


I like! It's actually kind of wise as a hand-carry bag for travels and stuff! :)


 :) I also got the more minute and more colorful version of it. Too fancy!


I also got this wrap-around bag. I think this is pretty cool for a go to travel. Like, not really far, not too near. Just right. LOL. The next thing I got is actually a bag strap/pendant. Check it out on the link.


The most recent that I got is this T-shirt. :)

To be honest, I've only used 3 products out of all of this. Just like my perfume craze, I tend to finish/get tired to one scent before using another. Why is that so me? I don't know. If you haven't heard of Shoop (if you're at least in Japan), it's kind of a party clothes store where they sell kind of daring outfits and stuff. Don't forget to check out the sales girls! Pretty awesome get-ups (always).

So yeah.

Saturday 7 April 2012

It's a physics thing.

April 07, 2012 0
It's a physics thing.
I don't remember much things about my previous years in college. Quite frankly, seriously. But of course, I know by much when I was still in high school or probably even my first few years in college. I am not here for nothing! LOL

I clearly remember though, it was very early in the morning and it was for a physics class that our general algebra, physics, and bio statistics professor mentioned this (all the same person). *Refer to the picture*

I knew it made an impact because all my disoriented and sleepy classmates (including me)  kind of made a funny sound. Some of us even laughed. How relevant it is to daily life.

That now leads me to my point. Isn't it so frustrating when someone you used to really really really know became just another stranger? Like for example, a high school friend or the like? Or for example, when you used to talk to someone on the phone for 3-4 hours everyday for like 5-6 months and then suddenly that someone stopped calling? And after you made an effort and initiated the conversation for oh-so-many-times, nothing actually changed? SUCKS right? WHAT'S WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE?

I mean, why would people actually do that? If there's no actual reason and if everything went fine the day before you both went to sleep and all the fvckery happened the next day, of course! Normally, you would of course think bad of yourself and at some point, blame yourself. Which sucks just as much. TAKING CREDIT OF THINGS YOU DIDN'T DO.

But how long is "long enough" to actually let it go? Is it wise to brush it off your shoulders instead of WAITING? Ooops! No one likes the WAITING GAME so never mind.

I sort of experienced this and REALLY! TRULY! It SUCKS. And it sucks big time. Like, I have probably said something or did something but to actually cut off the conversation JUST LIKE THAT? I'm not even sure if I really have done something or if that person is just being a douche or whatever like that. How inconsiderate not to actually tell me at once. Is it my fault? Is it this and is it that? SO MANY QUESTIONS! But how would I know? It's not that easy to ask. But that depends on how much is left of the relationship or WILL.

But really! It's true right? It sucks. But like every thing else, we'll be okay. We just have to let things happen and hope for the best. Let's just hope that things will be okay and that we'll be okay. And if it's not, MOVE ON.

Cheers!