SHIKIMIKIE

I just don't know how to stress this enough but I really think that it all starts from within. I mean, we should always start with ourselves first before we become relevant to others.

And this happened..

The other day, a senior-senior staff kind of randomly said that we should love ourselves first before we could serve. And this is in line with when I kind of opened up to her that in our first in, we were not allowed to extract blood as much as we are free to do so in our second in and that's how the conversation started.

She asked why the chief med tech in that laboratory (which I assume is her friend 'coz she mentioned the name even if I didn't tell) so scared. Like, so what if someone got pricked or whatever? Not everyone would get pricked. It's not the same for everyone. And she said that if we'll be going thru the same thing, we should recover from it. Prove that we're not all about that. Or we'll be known as the one who failed forever. And we don't want that, aye?

"If you fall, don't just stay on the ground. Stand up."

And I approve. You know. People might actually remember us from our failures and all that but there will be people who will remember us for our achievements. And let's just start from within. I mean, we don't have to please so many people anyways. Probably just ourselves. I bet it'll feel real good to see ourselves with the things we wanted to achieve. Like, even if we failed, we tried, and succeeded. That's a legit pattern right there.

So yeah. We should always see things as challenge and that we should always find a way to do it. Probably not right away. Like, eventually. I don't approve of doing things blindly. Like, think first before doing things. And then go. If it doesn't work, think again and then go. You know. It goes on. Just don't give up.

Make it happen! I guess One Direction clearly made their point when they said that we should live while we're young. Because you know, people just live as if they're just waiting for their old friend death. It shouldn't be like that. It's like wasting time and not enjoying the privilege given to us.

So while we're young, why not try to take advantage of the things we can still do while we're on it? Or even though those who are not so young anymore. And I don't mean doing crazy things that aren't good for the health. Nothing like drugs, and stuff.

Probably something like skydiving, cliff jumping, wake boarding, walking a long path, travelling, and all that good stuff. It's fun. Like, let's try to appreciate what we can still do and what we still have. You know what they say, enjoy it while it lasts.

Or maybe something we want to do but afraid of doing it, maybe there's no perfect timing for that. Maybe we are to make the perfect timing. Life's gonna pass us by without even realizing it and the next thing we know, we failed. No one wants to fail of course. We should persevere a little bit in attaining things that we want. Because they might not happen without us making a way for it to happen.

I just feel a little sad for those people who grew old but lack things like experience for them to say that they lived a good life.

It's kind of funny because lately, "life" has been my expression for some reason. Just saying. Not that it's relevant but whatever.

As a final note, I just want to say that we should always do things that will lead us to the things we want in life. Like, if we want something, we shouldn't be afraid. Well, only if it's good.

Have a good life! :)

I just came home from a wake (092012). It's kind of hard to blog about it really but then I just want to keep track on everything. It's gonna be long, I bet. A friend of mine died. It was like, all of a sudden. It wasn't given a chance to be cured or whatsoever. I guess too late for the operation. But then again...well.

The story was that friend of mine was in Medicine and Surgery school like, a week ago. Like, first year. And then another friend of mine tweeted that he dropped. And we were concerned about his slot there and all that. The fees and stuff. Because medicine and surgery is like 100k+ in our uni plus books and everything. But then we thought and said that his health is more important than anything else.

So then awhile ago, the same friend called me while I was eating breakfast. She asked me I receive anything from some other friends. When I said no, she finally said it. Said that our friend already died. So I was shocked and all that. And I wasn't able to review for the exit exam in our hospital and all that stuff. It was said it was a polyp but yeah...later.

So I said to myself that I can't be absent on his wake. Like, I missed a lot of gatherings and all that but NOT THIS ONE. So after my duty, I went home and went to the wake. With my cousin. Which I am thankful for.

Quite a lot of things happened on our way there. FIRST OF ALL, we got lost. There were apparently 2 branches of this place. But the one got totally destroyed and now it's just a big parking lot. The sad thing is that we went there first. Like, our uni is in Manila and that wrecked place is in Manila and the other is in Quezon City. What to expect? What happened was when we went to where it was supposed to be, well, we didn't have an idea on where exactly it used to be though. But we looked it up on Google maps first before we headed out so we have an idea that it was supposed to be in that area where we were looking for it. But then we couldn't find it. So we've asked like, 3 people that didn't know where and stuff so yeah. And then when we asked that guy that didn't look reliable at all (sorry for judging) he said that the place is that empty lot and he literally pointed on the empty lot at the back. And we actually clarified it and he just repeated what he said. So then I said that the place might be at the back of the empty lot. So we walked beside the empty lot and we've been walking for like quite a while and the condition that we were not seeing anything than a casino/hotel, we asked a security guard. Thinking he would be of any help. And he said he don't know where it is. So then we thought that we might still be far or the person who pointed on the empty lot was crazy and stuff. So we went on hoping there would be at least a sign of the place. We gave up and asked someone again. A vendor. He then said that the empty lot used to be that place and it was destroyed and stuff. HOLY CRAP moment. But then we got to keep going.

So I called my friend and told her what happened and then she told me where the place is situated and stuff. The funny thing is she asked me awhile if the place is near where it really is while I answered with "from what I know, the place is near (where it was destroyed) but then she was able to go to the right place. So it's just me.

So after two more rides and a lot of walking, we were able to reach the place. But first we entered the wrong building and stuff but then a guy told us that we might be on the wrong building. We probably looked really lost for him to tell that without us asking.

Luckily, I was able to find the room and it was somehow good to see everyone. It was a relief. I saw my friend and she asked me if I want her to join me in viewing our friend and I said yes right away. I'm actually afraid of looking at people that way so I would have asked her to join me if she didn't volunteer. I don't know why.

So then she told me the story. It wasn't just polyp or polyps like what they told us before. It was CANCER. And he actually said that to his closest friends but he said that they shouldn't tell everyone about it. That friend of ours had a heart attack when he was still an intern. Medical Technology intern in a hospital in Manila. But since he was in the hospital, he was saved. What happened now was when his girlfriend opened the door of his condo, he was already lifeless.

So that's what happened. And the autopsy done said that he died due to multiple organ failure.

It's sad really. We aren't the closest of friends but it's still sad. Like, thinking about it and stuff. I just want him to know that it was a pleasure knowing him and that I hope that wherever he is, he's happy.

I was moved when I saw his dad because he looked exactly like him and the eyes of his dad was really sore and all that. His dad is a doctor so looking from his dad's point of view, might be a thousand times more hurtful. Or more. But no one is with him that time, so that can't be helped. I can just imagine how his dad wished that he should have been there and all that.

Life is really too short. So whatever it is that we think we have to do, we should do it. I wish for the fast recovery of his parents' broken hearts for his lost. You will be missed.

I actually had this picture or typography or whatever you call it for a while. Because I actually thought of blogging about it before but then thought twice and didn't do it. I don't know why though. Lack of idea perhaps?

But then I do what I want and I write things even if I don't have the whole story sometimes. Like, I tell what I have to tell base on what I know.

Now when I reviewed all the pictures in my phone, I actually saw this thing again after quite a while. And it actually hit me. Not that hard. But nevertheless hard.

I'm actually 20 years old now. So, yeah. I actually told you before that I want internship to end as much as possible and stuff but now that I'm thinking of it, I'll be 21 by then and I don't want a year to pass just like that. Because wishing for internship to end means I want a year done without actually looking forward to things that might happen while I'm on it. It's pretty sad don't you think? So I'm going to re-establish that. I don't want a year to pass without actually doing something remarkable. I don't want internship to end without me learning something from it. I don't want a year to pass just like that.

I still want it to be pretty fast though. But when you actually learn from something, it's gonna be worth the while.

This is just so random. People say that life starts at whatever age. Like, 20, 30, 40, etc. I don't know. There's just something about being 20 that's quite alarming. Look at them young football players. They're already doing their thing. Like, am I seriously 20 already? Like, serious stuff? Yeah. That kind of thing.

So, whatever.

Anyways, here's a picture of my cousin and I. Just because we're both in our 20's. NAH. We're actually both 20. LOL.

But you get it, right? We should all enjoy life! :)