SHIKIMIKIE

I usually dream of flying. AT LEAST I USED TO. Before, when I feel like I'm trapped in a dream, I could always use my superpower and FLY. Almost instantly. It just feels like I always know what to do. Yesterday was different. And I've had similar dreams like this recently as well. I CAN'T WALK PROPERLY FOR FOR THE LOVE OF ME. It's feels like I'm so heavy which is relevant but not really in this situation. It feels like I am struggling to walk. And I was trying to run  even but same result. My dream is messing with Newton's Third Law of Motion. I've read online that FLYING MEANS FREEDOM and my dream of struggling to walk means I'm having trouble of getting where I want to be. Effing true! I just want to fly again you know. Ciao!

I took a nap awhile ago and I dreamt of something weird. Unless my dreams are weird, I wouldn't actually remember it so thank goodness my dreams are weird most of the time. If not always.

What happened was this. My sisters and I were watching an animated film. I don't know if it's TANGLED OR BRAVE but one of those. And then a group of young teens from the UK who were also watching and for some reason, making noise. Now, I'm not really sure how I knew they're from UK but I'm pretty sure with that. They're probably ONE DIRECTION. But that I'm not sure of. So then my sisters and I left the movie house because the noise was just something we can't handle anymore. We hopped in the car (white) and then I actually remember it very well that my youngest sister hopped in as well and so whatever, right? In the middle of the teip, I was discussing with my mom how I only have one month left to wander around JAPAN and so on. Okay so when we were near our destination (some tower), my youngest sister became a toddler and no one is even surprised. I believe I was a little surprised but that went off easily. Weird.

Okay so when we were about to check-in the place, the receptionists were questioning the toddler's identity and stuff and then we can't give them the information they want and stuff and then after a while, one of the receptionists left and when he came back, he said there's no need to ask because the real MARI (youngest sister) is coming already. And then my youngest sister was pointing and blaming my other sister for not believing in her and believed the toddle instead. My youngest sister was actually carrying a beverage box up the tower lobby and we all got a drink from that box in the end.

Whut?

I'm actually very proud that I'm good at identifying what's a dream and what's reality but lately, I don't know. First of all, I don't know what the heck was that dream all about but I was entertained. Can I just say that I really failed big time because first of all, WE DON'T HAVE A WHITE CAR ANYMORE. That didn't even alert me or whatever. And then this is like the worst because it was such a giveaway. THE TODDLER IS A BOY. Haha oh well.

I just don't know how to stress this enough but I really think that it all starts from within. I mean, we should always start with ourselves first before we become relevant to others.

And this happened..

The other day, a senior-senior staff kind of randomly said that we should love ourselves first before we could serve. And this is in line with when I kind of opened up to her that in our first in, we were not allowed to extract blood as much as we are free to do so in our second in and that's how the conversation started.

She asked why the chief med tech in that laboratory (which I assume is her friend 'coz she mentioned the name even if I didn't tell) so scared. Like, so what if someone got pricked or whatever? Not everyone would get pricked. It's not the same for everyone. And she said that if we'll be going thru the same thing, we should recover from it. Prove that we're not all about that. Or we'll be known as the one who failed forever. And we don't want that, aye?

"If you fall, don't just stay on the ground. Stand up."

And I approve. You know. People might actually remember us from our failures and all that but there will be people who will remember us for our achievements. And let's just start from within. I mean, we don't have to please so many people anyways. Probably just ourselves. I bet it'll feel real good to see ourselves with the things we wanted to achieve. Like, even if we failed, we tried, and succeeded. That's a legit pattern right there.

So yeah. We should always see things as challenge and that we should always find a way to do it. Probably not right away. Like, eventually. I don't approve of doing things blindly. Like, think first before doing things. And then go. If it doesn't work, think again and then go. You know. It goes on. Just don't give up.