SHIKIMIKIE

Are we gonna talk about work again, you ask. Bingo! I have been working for almost 5 weeks now and guess what? The longer I stay, the more bitches I encounter! Because. Okay let me just start with this bitch. Actually, the only bish we're gonna talk about. 

Last week, I was on a line with her and she's actually new. I think I only came in a week or two earlier though but still new. She was telling me what to do and stuff like that and even telling someone who's been there for 5 months what to do. Are you crazy, girl? You don't know a thing yet so don't brag! Tell you about this girl, though. She has a very irritating high pitched voice that you wouldn't want to hear. Bellatrix Lestrange's laugh compared to this girl's voice would be an effing Coldplay concert. And she would just shout when talking to somebody and would really irritate my ear drums. No exaggeration. 

Awhile ago, they were about to clean their machine and I think she was uncertain whether to use hot or cold water and then I think her partner thought otherwise and then she was like being frantic all of a sudden and scolded her partner and we were like, WHAT'S UP? She then excused herself to talk to the veteran and then the veteran agreed to her partner and she was insisting what she know's right. She was saying that she was instructed such by someone. I just feel bad for her partner because I feel like she didn't deserve that shout. FEELS! If she ever do that to me, hair will fall out of places, believe me! Sayang! Mukha pa naman siyang model. Not actually pretty but she's tall and slim and stuff. Sayang!! Uma-attitude teh! 

Kind of related, this girl doesn't fall in line when riding the bus!! Fall in line, girl! Like, I don't know about how these people are trained but when people are on a queue, what kind of person just go in front, right? (FILIPINO, NEPALI, and VIETNAMESE) Irritating! Not in general but you get the point! I just can't stop complaining about the lines at the bus stop. Someone assign a leader to the crowd. 

Okay so back to what I was saying, like I haven't said enough already, yesterday, like I did my best to run to the bus and then two Nepali guys were trying to stop me from seating and said that l should just sit in front of but I was like "MO NAI" (no more place) so silent but I was like making a 😒/-_- facial expression. Like, don't talk to me. So they didn't have a choice. I win. Akala niyo ha!! And then there's thing other thing that happened. The Filos saved seats for people who weren't even there yet and then when people were trying to sit they said that the person went to the toilet and stuff and I was like, OKAY I DON'T CARE. One Nepali was I think saying to her countrmen that nobody went to the toilet since she arrived earlier so yeah. They were talking on their own language so I can't really tell but judging it from the tone of their voice, that's what I think they were talking about. Okay? Anyways! Glad that the people "who just went to the toilet" didn't go in and let others in so maybe that's why I wasn't that pissed off. Life! See yah!

I haven't been here for long but there are some things that I have already learned and observed from my work place. 

First, btches are everywhere. May it be from your own country or not. But there are people who are so nice that you can't even. But those btches would really consume you and just want you to smash their face like you want to smash a ripe banana when making Banana Bread. I don't know but as time goes, it doesn't actually gets better. It worsens. Like, first this bitch was talking about me and stuff and she probably thought I couldn't hear her but that's forgiven. Forgiven forgotten. Actually that person's kinda nice. We're kinda friends now. Kinda. But this person at the bus though! Like, are you serious? They were talking about me in my NATIVE LANGUAGE  like I don't exist. They probably thought I cannot understand them or stuff because according to the people at my work place, I don't look like anything but Japanese. So that's my conclusion. But then you just don't talk about someone. More so insult them. Again, you're in my country, btch. This btch only though. She was talking to some neutral mannered species. But this btch! Oh this btch. I will one day pass by her and speak Filipino and stare at her with my left eyebrow raised. I really will! Or like the next time she talks about me, I would just say, ANONG PROBLEMA MO SA AKIN? (what's you're problem with me?) I don't want to start a fight but I'm not gonna let anyone insult me like that. In my own country, NO. 

It's not my nature to step down on people's level but this time I will. Because I was insulted. By someone who should be helping me because I am of her kind. But no btch! You're one sick mothereffer who deserves no love from this country or your country. No wonder you look haggard and ugly. Yes btch. Right back at you! You actually look worse. You know, I wouldn't actually be offended if she's pretty, beautiful, or even just look presentable. With that look? No way. Ano ka? Artistahin? You look like a garbage. Mahiya ka naman sa hitsura mo teh! Or actually, I wouldn't be offended is she's young. She looks older than my mom!! Tumatanda ba siyang paurong? You know, me comparing her to my mom is an absolute insult to my mom. Being old, she should have all the manners in this world already and there she was, btching. It's sad how people can act uneducated sometimes. Buti pa yung mga uneducated pero well mannered. Siya mukhang uneducated na, ill mannered pa. Yuck!! Sorry ha. And mukha siyang hindi naliligo. Promise. Naliligo ka ba teh? See, this is not the right way to justify it but if she didn't started this, I wouldn't have been ranting here. Eye for an eye dude. 

There are many things to rant about pa but for now, that's all I have to share. Also, I kinda feel better now that I have said all of these. See yah!

Okay so this is the rant I was talking about earlier in my post. First of all, I don't really like the whole idea of it because it's all unorganized and so like unprofessional looking. 

Okay basically this is what happened. The first thing that happened was this. The lady pinned flowers on me and my mom well in fact, we're not fully aware of what's happening yet and what if we got pricked of that unsterilized pin? Med tech stuff. I won't actually mind the flowers if it's really needed but then NO! Not in the R.A. 5527 and so why are these people being annoying and just doing this thing? They charge 100 pesos each. They probably spent like 20 pesos making that thing and the maximum price I could accept that thing although still overpriced is 60 pesos. They should be banned or something. Because clearly, they're just taking advantage of the situation. 

Anyways. The next thing I found inconvenient is the waiting time. Can I just say that it took me like 5 minutes to get ready? I can certainly top that 5 minute YouTube make up challenge anyways and then we rushed to the venue. I don't blame the time because it's probably my fault that I wasn't able to get ready but it's their fault that they didn't open the venue on time. By the way the ticket said that the program starts at 9 am but then the lady at the counter told me I have to be there at 7 and yeah. Actually, the program didn't start at 9 as well. They were probably 30 minutes late. But the flower is what really pissed me off. 

Also, the pictures. I was informed that there would be an official photographer but I wasn't told it was required. So after this girl pinned flower to us, a gay guy spoke and asked me to sign this little paper that happened to be my claim slip and so I did. And them what? Charged me 500 pesos? I then told the guy that I wouldn't avail of the picture thing and just take pictures on my own and then he said "No ma'am. Kailangan po talaga." So I was like left with no choice but to pay him at that moment. And then you know what I found out? Some people wasn't forced to avail of the picture thing. So fvcked up. 

When I entered the venue, I got more disappointed. Because I was like what's happening here? It's air conditioned but the ambiance is like a covered court and then it's so cheap looking and yeah. Also, it's like so dim inside that I was actually confused whether they would switch on more lights at the beginning of the program but what they did is open an awkward light in front that did nothing.

And then the food. I told you I was ready to get disappointed but it was actually okay but the thing that really got me pissed was that they served the food at different times. Like my mom's table was served last despite our tables being in the mid section of the venue and like the tables at the back were already served so yeah and then on the table, they would serve 5/10 and then come back after like 10 minutes to serve the remaining 5. Which is unhealthy because we could see the rest of the people eating and then our food is not yet in front of us. Can you feel my pain? LOL. So yeah that's like the story of it.

I'm so disgusted that money is all that matters now. We barely get what our money's worth nowadays. And it's sad. That's the mini rant I have so yeah. Take care! :)

Yesterday, I saw a screen capture of a tweet from one of my favorite showbiz personalities. Bianca Gonzales. I like her. I like what she does. I like her blog. Almost everything. But for some reason, people can't digest some of her point of views. This for example.

I always liked the rain. But in times like this, it can get really annoying. Yesterday, I went to probably the most craziest journey on my own. So our class ended at like 7:10 pm or longer instead of 7:00 pm because our instructor told us to stay and that we could take advantage of the time and continue on with the topic instead of just waiting downstairs and wait for the rain to stop and doing nothing. So yeah. Anyways, I went to the place where I usually ride, right? Then after probably 30 minutes of waiting in the rain, I finally thought I would just take a different route and would just walk to the train station (not very far anyways) but VERY DANGEROUS! Imma tell you something at the end. So when I reached the Train Station, the lines are mega  long and worst is since there are what look like 3 lines, there are quite a lot of people who got in earlier than those who actually fell in line. Nakakahiya naman sa kanila. So can I just say that setting that aside, I'm quite proud of the progress of the LRT protocol because they cut off people from entering now and would just allow a certain number amount of people in so that there would be "enough" (still not quite) space for people to enter and the next station and the station next to that. I guess 10 trains passed by before I was actually able to go in which I didn't mind at all because that might be worse if they didn't imply that new policy. When I was able to enter, my umbrella fell and it's like Newton's Law of Motion was happening and that there's no chance for me to pick up the umbrella and the girl behind me was like, sorry I can't pick it too but fortunately, the girl waiting to get in was able to pick it up and give it to me. Mega thankful! Thank you again ate! Whoever you are. Call me sexist or whatever but I super hate it when boys call me ate when they're obviously older than I am. I forgive when it's 50-50 chance that it'd be the case but those 40 plus looking guys are unforgivable. I also forgive if it's somehow very sincere but those pervs! UGH. So whatever.  What happened inside the car was like, the funniest experience of the night, it's funnier yesterday but Imma tell it  still anyways. There's someone who brought an electric fan and normally, people would be annoyed and irritated but after a while, people were like, "open it na ate." because we're like super crowded and it's super hot inside and then I was just observing and laughing (when necessary) and one thing I have proved (from yesterday and internship) is that students from different school are way too sociable than people from my school. But anyways, that girl (bless her) is too funny man. She's actually a head taller than us. Well for me at least and she was like making jokes and being friends with the girl holding the electric fan and she even volunteered to hold the electric fan for a short while. Anyways. That happened. 

And then awhile ago, our class is supposed to be at 1 pm and then probably at 1:30, the office people told the late comers that our instructor wouldn't make it (as always) and then those late comers shared it to us who are already in, right? And then what happened was at 2, the office made it official. But I'm really glad today happened. Because my schoolmate which I'm always with left earlier and decided not to attend the 5-7 class already but that's not the good point. And so when I was left alone, a girl approached me and we can say that I gained a friend. Just a little background, she's from Mindanao and her fate is kind of the reverse of mine because she actually took nursing for 2 years and shifted to medical technology and yeah. She's Muslim, friendly, and very funny! I am actually very excited to have a friend from other parts of The Philippines and yeah. Okay so the reason why that place is dangerous is that one of my high school friends already had an experience in that place and the other day, the schoolmate I was talking about experienced it. Totally different though because my high school friend got hurt but what happened to my school mate is that she felt like there's something on her backpack and when she turned her head, she saw that a girl is holding the zipper of her bag's small pocket and then she just pretended she didn't see anything and just left the scene. Which I personally think is the best thing to do. And then awhile ago, she said that the girl is still there and was following another person. Anyways. That's all I have to share guys. Good vibes. 

As much as I find the election enticing, I just can't control myself and notice the effery going on.

IS IT FIESTA TIME OR WHAT?

Danke or Thank You in German is what I want this post to be known as. I don't know why and I wouldn't actually enumerate those in this post but I JUST WANNA. I feel like it.

I got this shirt from my mom as one of the presents for my Birthday :) I love myself. Yup! Oh and I saw my high school friend on our way there and I actually showed her my shirt and we just laughed at it. It was nice to see her. I have to catch-up with my high school buddies soon!

On a more serious note, I swear I just have to let this go. The guy in front of me was wearing a shirt with somehow a naked woman at the back of his shirt. I was like, wow! Does he really know where he's going?There were KIDS inside the church and he was with his family at the first place. DUH. There were a lot of things I noticed inside the church but okay I won't mention it na. BECAUSE I SHOULD BE CONCENTRATING ON THE MASS. Not the people. But sometimes I can't. I just feel like people don't know its worth any more. 

Moving on. So after the mass, we planned to go to Infinitea to chill and all that but since it's relatively new to that place, it's super crowded and we didn't want to wait so I was like, let's just go upstairs and find another shop. 

And then we went to Baresso. My best friend and I actually used to go there as high school students because the Barista looks like Mark Herras. Ha! High school kids! Haha. Too bad he's not working there anymore. Anyways! :D 

We both ordered something Mocha based because we just had coffee and chocolate earlier that time. So yeah. What can I say? I actually don't remember how their stuff used to taste like. I mean, way back high school but yeah I don't know how I feel about their stuff  now. I think that the flavor was too strong and somehow the drink itself was too sweet but their place is kind of cool. I just thought that I didn't get what I paid for. Their meals are quite affordable but their drinks are kind of expensive. Will definitely go back and try other stuff from there. That's all! :)

Election here in the Philippines is just around the corner. It means, things are already getting annoying. I'm not a fan of politics. Thank you to my second year Filipino teacher way back in high school who supported me with this. In my opinion, it's not like choosing to turn off the lights for an hour to save the Earth. By doing that, you're certain that you did something right. There's no backfire. In politics, you choose someone, that someone messed up, your fault (partly) because not everyone wanted that someone to be in position. The point is, I don't really care if I don't vote or whatever because I don't really care. And because I don't vote, I wouldn't complain (much) about things related to politics or things like that.

Except this.

This happened very near our house so I was able to hear what the speakers were saying and all that crap. So basically, this politician who's running for a position in the congress was like mentioning her accomplishments and all that which I have nothing against. I mean, if you really were able to accomplish things like that, go on! Because it's related to whatever you still want to do in your future term. Just in case. And then she was like, I left politics because of the greater responsibility instilled in me by God and that's to be a mother to my children. I agree! I mean, that's a good thing to do. And then! She was like, my eldest was this age (can't remember) when I left politics and now, she/he's already a practising lawyer and stuff. And she was like, she/he graduated from U.P. Diliman and all that shizz and then she went on and said basically the same thing to her other children. And I was like, she could have just generalized her children but then she was like, bragging, telling the people her children are consistent honor students, and whatever. And I was like, woman! Are you gonna be a mother to this people? If yes, then what you bragged about would be relevant but no! So why tell them? Building rapport? I feel bad for her children because her mother just took off their individuality and make it look like it's her who made them where they are right now. Which is true! But they're the one who studied their arse out to become a dean's listers not their mother. What their mother did is to actually pay for their tuition fee. I don't know. I would actually appreciate it if she did mention how proud she is that her children worked hard and studied hard and everything but nah. She took all the credits. In my humble opinion.

Just when I thought everything's done, our Barangay People was like telling everyone to listen to the speaker because it's for them and that they should be interested and all that and basically just trying to brainwash the people and telling them how great the next speaker would be. On how they talked to the next speaker and that he promised to put doctors and nurses in our health center. On how there would be a better this and that. Sick. And oh he was like, you should listen to the speaker because he was from this pa, and he would make time for all of you and stuff. WTH. And then he was like, don't just be here for the prices because if this candidate made it, there would be a better price for all of us thru his service. Yeah right. Tell me more about it. And they were telling how close this candidate is to the President of the Philippines and so we would have a better shot. I didn't know that's how things work in the palace. I didn't know you have to be close to the President to get things done. Wow.

At the end, they gave away 500 pesos to I think 5 winners and all that. I don't really care but I think the people deserved that token for listening to a lot of bull.

Oh well. That's all I have to say.

Guess what? If you can remember, or did I even tell you? I actually forgot to charge my camera last Pasukan (2011). And then I promised myself that I'm not gonna make the same mistake again. I then charged my batteries and all that and then when I first opened the camera, NO MEMORY CARD INSERTED. WTF? Talk about luck. Like, what the fudge. So what did I do?

All thanks to my iPhone.

It's actually quite unlucky for me because I kind of wanted to be in front but like, this is the best spot we can find. And it's even that near. But I must say that this spot is the nearest spot we could get so whatever.

This is us. Like, only the three of us this time. Our other friend should also be with us but she wasn't able to find us so whatever.

I decided to introduce them to my new favorite street food. DYNAMITE. My cousin liked it. My sister, not much. But whatever. She doesn't like a whole lot of food anyways.

Another sister and I photo.

The ever blurry but happy picture of my cousin and I. Oh wells. That's life.

The thing is I don't usually answer back to people. Not that I get complaints often but you know! I actually rarely answer back. It's either I'm sure that I am right or I think that I am mostly right. The point is! There are just some people I can't stand anymore.

Let me just share some of my internship experiences. Can I just say that lately, I get really pissed off easily by stuff. And it's not just me. Ha! In Histopath section, we actually get to extract from our patients' and that means we actually have to deal with the relatives. Which I hate by the way. If you don't know already.

I have three stories to tell you. Just so you would be able to figure out what I am trying to tell.

First.

This happened during the morning pick-up. If you don't know what that is, it's when we extract blood from the patients' every morning for their laboratory exams and all that stuff.

Okay so let's start for real with the first case.

There's this patient who I was about to extract right? I informed the relative and guess what? The relative left. I actually don't know if I persuaded her to leave or what but when I informed her, she left. And I don't know why. If you know me, you would know I don't mind. Hospitals here should be like hospitals in Japan. NO RELATIVE ALLOWED. Anyways, so I tried to extract blood but when I injected the needle, he was like moving and tried to remove my tourniquet and his other hand was like so makulit. So obviously, I wasn't able to extract blood properly.

Morning picks actually go by pair so I helped my co-intern with his extraction and asked him to hold the other patient for me. Guess what? The relative is back and she was already complaining on how blood was already extracted yesterday and the other day and all that. I mean, they probably don't know that laboratory tests are repeated almost everyday for monitoring and all that. And she was explaining about a test that was done to the patient which is not actually our job so whatever. So I extracted blood with my co-intern holding him but he was still moving a lot and all that. So I just got like 1cc and went down.

Second.

This one was actually an endorsement so I was already expecting that it is a hard to extract patient. Edema is actually our enemy since it makes everything worse. Like, seriously. And my post mate actually already endorsed the relative was whiny and was like complaining.

So I was actually extra courteous when I went to the ward and then I searched for the vein and actually, I was able to hit the vein but the blood was coming out too slow so I kind of don't know whether or not to pull it already because it's still not enough but I'm aware that it might already be clotted so whatevs. When I reached the end of the syringe with my plunger, the blood is not flowing anymore so I pushed it back to the level of the blood and guess what? This relative asked the most ridiculous thing ever. WHY ARE YOU INJECTING AIR? I pulled it out and yup! It was clotted. So whatever.

I then answered IT'S NOT AIR. IT'S VACUUM. And then she kind of said so many things that I can't even anymore and said I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING. And she said yeah I know what you know what you're doing but blah blah blah blah blah. Can you just stop already? GUSTO MO YATANG IKAW NA KUMUHA NG DUGO EH? Nakakahiya naman. And then I kind of said that we have other patients like that as well. Just so she know that it's not gonna be my first time. And guess what she said? I DON'T CARE ABOUT OTHER PATIENTS. I was so close in saying I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR PATIENT TOO. But I just shook it off. So close.

I actually have other vein to extract from but since I don't want to stay because you know! I might say something else.

But then I said sorry and just walked away. Thanks to the relative of the other patient for actually defending me and saying it's really hard to extract from patients like that.

And then I endorsed it to the nurse and she said she also can't extract blood from that patient and so I was like okay, I'll just endorse it to my staff.

So that happened.

Can I just say that I was really really pissed off? Like, injecting air?? What kind of science is that? If I indeed injected air, she probably wouldn't be able to speak anymore because her relative would be dead. Annoying.

Third.

I've been hearing about this patient for a while now. Like the staffs are always mentioning her. Thing is we actually don't extract blood from those who pay for everything they avail. Like, those who are from the pay ward.

So then I got asked to go to her ward with the pathologist on duty and the relatives were so nice and all that. The guy was combing his mother's hair and all that. And then they were really really nice that the guy actually got a flashlight and pointed it to his mother's hand for the doctor to actually see better.

The staff on duty who endorsed actually said that she tried 4 times and failed and all that and then the pathologist I was with tried like 4 times and failed. But did the relatives complain? No.

So whatever.

They all get hurt. It's not like there's local anesthesia for those who are in the pay ward or something. Some people just have to be a little more understanding.

For patients' relatives one and two. What do they expect their patients to be in a hospital? Effing comfortable? No needles and all that? Stay home then. Government hospitals like my hospital now is trying to help but you have to help us too. Just effing shut up. It would really mean a lot.

Like, can I just say? I mean. That's it. It's really annoying when I encounter this kind of things in the emergency room. Like, are you effing serious? Well, you're not only wasting your money for the effing emergency room fee and all that unnecessary laboratory tests but you're also wasting our energy.

I don't know if this incident made it to the local news but not so long ago, a nursing student was taken hostage by a hold upper and she was brought to the emergency room because she was traumatized. The hold upper was also brought to the emergency room because he was actually shot in the head by a sniper. I mean, that's understandable. Shot in the head = emergency room. Traumatized = emergency room.

Also, even before that incident, there were two effing careless individual who think they're superheroes of some kind and shot each other helpless and so they both ended up in the emergency room. I mean, that's somehow understandable too because they're both shot but whatever!! I mean, that's just so careless. How dare them shot each other when they're incapable of protecting themselves and stuff.

There was also an incident of electric shock. Even though it's not entirely his fault, he should have been more careful. But his case is understandable.

And all other serious stuff = understandable.

If you're child (below 16) is sick, then it's understandable that you're worried and that if you rush him or her to the emergency room, fine.

NOW! Let's get to these creatures. If you're child is 16 above, and it's just their first day of getting sick, what are you doing in the emergency room? I know you're probably worried and stuff. But seriously? 1st effing day of fever and stuff? WTH! Like, to the extreme.

And then those kind or people have the guts to complain that their case is being ignored. WOW. Just WOW.

Right! Well my mom always reply with this and so with my friend's mom and stuff, so yeah. It's probably a mom thing or something. But not all. Of course! I will seriously reply with this anytime I feel like so. Hahaha. Not with mom though. LOL. She'd be like "WTF" for sure. Positive. Just saying. I love my mom. Just other people. Or it actually depends. There are just some people who I don't want to talk to but need to and stuff. You know! LOL.

Like, with my mom, she would actually reply with "K" whenever I ask her for permission if I'm going somewhere and stuff so yeah a "K" reply in that sense is mostly welcome. Yup. Have a good day. P.S. I'm not a teenager.

iPhone's front camera is really very novice. Not even for a "just" decent camera. The resolution is really crappy and it's over pixelated. It's relative though. Like, you have to have a generous lighting for it to work fine. It's really very annoying. The back camera is "just" okay. Not that good either.

I'll show some pictures below to testify with my rant. I took these on like, night time with my room lights open. See the sanding sort of effect it gives? Not sexy.

So yeah. The reason why I'm still using it though is because I have to deal with it. I may hate stuff and all that but that doesn't mean I can do something for it to change. Like all else, we should just learn how to deal with stuff. It'll make living easier. But seriously APPLE, people really use the front camera so do something about it please. I'd be really happy if you can step up your game. 5 megapixel front camera please! :D

I trade my soul for a wish,

pennies and dimes for a kiss

I wasn't looking for this,

but now you're in my way

And no! I am an not a super big fan or anything like that. It's just so annoying how some people really get on my nerves and actually make me post something like this. Like, she recently had her concert here in Manila but it wasn't that easy because there were super whatever people who actually made a move to kind of stop the concert and stuff. The reason being is that they were saying that Lady Gaga is promoting something like devil-ish thingy and all that through her songs. Oh well. Some people really doesn't understand art and all that. I'm not justifying that art as being devil-ish, okay? I'm just saying that art can be anything and with that being said, leave her art alone.

And why were they trying to stop the concert again? Because what? I mean, it's not that WE ARE OBLIGED to watch the concert! It's not like she's PAYING US to watch the concert. These people are really annoying.

Thinking about it, maybe it's her song JUDAS. But wait! It's not like all her songs are like that. JUDAS is probably not the most appropriate song that she have but whatever! Yeah, whatever!

Born This Way may talk about Transgenders but what can we do? It's not like she's saying that we should all be transgenders. She's just saying that some people were born that way and there's nothing wrong with that. I mean, really. I know some religious organizations doesn't really accept that but what can they do? what will they do? condemn them? GREAT! I thought we're all created equal? Ha!

Now, there might be other stuff that were mentioned in her songs but there are stuff in there that just reflect reality. We just have to be more realistic but at the same time imaginative to connect more and maybe understand a little further.

But as far as I'm concern, people have no right to tell other people to stop listening to this, stop watching this, and stuff like that. We all have our preferences. Now if you don't like Lady Gaga, DON'T WATCH. That easy. End of conversation.

It's not that I have anything against people asking for alms. It's just that it's really inappropriate sometimes. Like in this particular post.

I go to school by myself. No driver, no one. If you happen to go to the same path as I do, you've probably noticed that guy near 7/11 that's like always there early in the morning asking for alms. I was like, okay, kind of old to work (can!). He's been there ever since I can remember (2008).

I apologize for missing minute details about life. Recently, I've noticed that his arms are full of TATOOs. And you best believe I was mind fcked. Like, seriously. I was like, was he a criminal? Tattoo addict? Whatever, whatever?

I mean, if he was a criminal, then who the F is he to ask for people's money? Why? In theory, he probably did it the hard way before that's why he was on jail the first place. If you ask me, it's a lot better than stealing/snatching/hold-upping people of course. But seriously?

I refuse to give anything to this kind of people like, call me what you want to call me but I have this idea that if people would stop giving to this kind of people then they would probably realize that it's not really easy to give money and all that and that they should earn it. Then maybe, they will find a job, make a living, survive, then everybody's happy. I know I made it sound like it's that easy but whatever. It's still their fault for me.

I DON'T discourage charity in any sense. I think if you're really lucky in life and you want to share to those who're most in need then GO! It's a beautiful thing to share. But if the same set of people would spend all your loving and just wait for your second shower of blessing then there's something wrong won't you say? EXACTLY.

I don't care if these people aren't educated and equipped with knowledge. If there's a will, there's a way. Like, really. It's not that hard to use your skills and all that in life. They're probably way too stupid or lazy.